I think I would not be wrong in saying that when people think of love they think of it romantically towards a man or woman. That is love but love is so much more then that too. Real love transforms you, makes you see things clearer, makes you want to be different, changes your goals and desires, changes the way you look at people and talk to people, when you know real love you walk different and talk different its a whole new sight its a whole new you. Depending on what you choose to love it can be a great change or one that is not so great. Its crazy how loving the wrong person can make your whole experience of love different. The way we experience love is the direct result of who we love and let love us. Love is important but we dont learn it in school, we learn it from people who bearly understand it themselves. But we have the opportunity to learn it from its creator, and who knows love better then the God who created it. We have to reset our source, for so long we learned love from people that we have to retrain our minds to learn and understand love through God’s eyes. Through the eyes of the creator, that perfect, unconditional, complete love that requires nothing from you but fills you up so completely. That is the love God holds in his hands waiting for us to grab. Waiting for us to acknowledge and recognize the love that kept him on the cross until death when he could have stopped at anytime. God’s love is so powerful, once we really grasp it Love becomes something total different from what we perceive it to be. It becomes everything we thought it wasn’t and everything we hope it is. Ask God to show you love the way he created it to be and be ready for your whole world to change!
Love is a funny thing. I have been reading different books about love and relationships and a couple things stood out to me. First thing was you can’t really know and understand love until you know and understand the love God has for you. I think that is true for a-lot of things but especial love. Accepting his perfect unconditional love opens up a can of worms that can never be sealed. You understand it differently therefore you give it differently, it can be beautiful when you love from a place of eternal unconditional love and it can be ugly when you love from a place of superficial need. Accepting the unconditional love of God fills you, helps you to love from a complete place. Most of us love from a place of want and need we want someone to fill us instead of already being filled by the one who created and gave his love with no strings attached. It sounds so good to love like that but in reality we don’t always do that. We love in the hopes of being loved, not in a place of having love. Can you image loving someone just to love them, I think we do that with family but not others, Jesus on the other hand loved us all of us everyone of us, without wanting or needing anything from us. He is our role model in everything we do, he used the wholeness of God to fill the world with the Love of God. He filled himself everyday with pray and time alone with his Father, he understood the love of God, he understood who God was and who he was because of God. Be a follower of Christ know the Love of God, accept the love of God and live in that love. Part II coming soon 🙂
I began a relationship a few years ago that I shoud not have been in. It was a struggle for me to let it go because this was the first time I liked someone enough to really feel it. It scared my to let it go because I thought what if it never came back, this feeling this overwhelming, wonderful and terrible all at the same time feeling. During that time I spoke with my mentor and she said let go. She then went on to talk about David and Bathsheba, and during that time because my mind was so consumed with not letting go I thought well God brought Solomon out of that relationship, they stayed together it couldn’t be that bad. But that was the state of mind I was in I didn’t want to recieve the truth of that story. This morning I woke up and God reminded me of that moment and then revealed the truth that at that moment I didn’t want to see. David sinned he did wrong he had a choice he made the wrong one, but God is good and he worked David’s wrong out for his good, but God didn’t say oh David that’s fine I will just fix this for you, he punished David first with the death of the first child they had, but after the punishment he blessed him with another child who happened to be Solomon. For a while I had this notion, “God knows what I will do, God knows how I will react to things.” and this is true but the real truth behind it is God knows your chooses and you can chose to be better, you can make the right choice and not the wrong one and God knows that. Sin is sin, wrong is wrong. Yes, God knows you but so does the devil and he will try his hardest to make you chose wrong and then justified it. Chose right, chose righteousness be as Good in the dark as you are in the light. Yesterday I heard Pricilla Shirer speak and she spoke of a boat and how when it is turned upside down the atmosphere invites critters to it, they don’t need an invitation the environment calls to them and that is how Satan works if you are living in a environment that is hospitable to Satan he will be there, but if you flip that boat and let the sunshine on it the environment changes and it becomes uninhabitable for Satan. Live a life inhospitable to Satan. Everyday chose to sit in the sun, chose good, chose right, chose truth, chose well and intentionally, chose God’s glory over self. That is my ambition for this year and for every year after I chose life, the life that the Lord has for me, the good life.
It is the end of the year, the old is going out and the new is coming in. It is such an amazing thing, time, how it can’t be moved at any other pace but it’s own. People say all the time, oh this year flew by or this day is dragging on. But, it doesn’t move any faster or any slower it just moves. But for God time is different the Word says, “With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day” Time is our experience, why the Lord choose to give us that to experience with all the other things we have to experience in the World is beyond me. But we do and how do we use this experience; how much focus do you put into to time, how much of yourself do you lose to time, how much of yourself do you lose to things that aren’t worth your time. I think the Lord has an idea about how we should spend the time he gives us, but we become so focused on what we want to do with it or that there is never enough of it, we don’t ask him. 2018 will come in just as 2017 did and the year will go by just the same, the only difference will be how we choose to spend this time experience. How we want or how God wants. For me this year I will try my hardest to spend my God given time, the way God would want. I am not sure yet how that will look or how I would even going about doing it, but I think just saying it out loud, “Lord, I want to spend the time you are giving me the way you want.” I think it starts, cogs being spinning and things start going into motion that we can’t even see or understand. Faith, that he will answer when we ask. I will have that faith this year, everyday, every minute, every second. Maybe, It will be a difficult task at first but I believe the Lord will give me the strength to follow through. I pray this year will End well and Begin in the most beautiful way. I claim victory over this new piece of time we are getting and I hope to be spending well!
I think a lot about Who God is, his attributes. As I was driving a young man home one night and he was talking about his relationship with God, somewhere in our conversation he said, “I am a good person”. And I thought about that a lot how God is a good God but our perception of good is different from the kind of Good he is, his good is pass comprehension, we can’t even fathom what good really means when it comes to God. The definition of good is
Tomorrow I am turning 30. I feel no particular way about it, because I have been gradually aging since the day I was born, people have been asking how I feel and I feel just like I did when I turned 29 and 28. I think years are an experience and this year has been such an experience for me one of the most terrible, beautiful, sad, scary, greatest experience of my life thus far. Standing on the edge of 30 I can see how amazing and transforming it was. How much I learned about God and who I am because of who he is. I am making a list of things I want to focus on this year I am trying to do a top 5 I am currently at 4. My first one is to have intentional, meaningful, God-Centered relationships with people and to build on the relationships I already have, to understand them better, to put more time and attention into them. Second to live more intentionally , with more purpose, with more peace about the decisions I make in life. Third learn more about Jesus, learn more about who I am because he chose me. Fourth love people better, learn to be loved better, hold tight to my true source of love and try not to make someone else that main source. As I said I am still working on #5. I am excited about 30 I am excited about what it will look and feel like. I am excited for what I will learn and leave and how I will be at the end of it. I am excited about this Experience and I am more excited that I had my last experience to prepare me for this one.
On Sunday Matt Redman lead praise and worship at church. It was amazing! During worship when he spoke he said something that completely shook my spirit. He said singing is a way we can intentionally give our breath back to God who has given it to us. What a wonderful visual to release your breath in song to the King of Kings, to do it willingly, intentionally and often. It made my heart shine thinking about giving something back to Lord on my own because I want to not because I wanted something. It makes me more aware of how and when I come to Christ. Wanting to come to just give instead of wanting to receive, praying because I am thankful for what I have instead of praying for what I want and for what I think I am missing, praising him when I fill full not just when I am empty. Being aware of Him at every moment not just when i need something, not just when things aren’t going the way I think they should, but to totally be aware of him with every breath I breathe.