I am a mess and that’s on my good days. In one breath I’m like, “okay Jesus I trust you with everything” and the next I’m crying rivers of tears as I look at my bank account. Money, money, money for some odd reason I am terrified of just letting go and letting God handle my money… excuse me His money. It’s his he gave it to me, but when I get it I become a double , triple, quadruple calculating, 4 budgets for 2 days making, late fee and overdraft predicting, never enough money monster. Never enough, that is my fear. I will never have enough, cause if I did I could be free and give it to God. I think this is how we think about things that bind us. Once I get to point A or point B I can be free of it I can let God have it, but only after I fix it. But until we give those things to God, Iike my money issues we will never be free. I feel like I am in a continual test about trusting the Lord with my money and I feel like I continually fail, wishing I would have reacted one way instead of how I did, wishing I would have done that thing, instead of thing I did. Wishing I made better choices and decision aka I wishing I trusted Jesus the Enough. Because he is the enough that I am looking for and he is the enough you’re looking for. He gives us all we need daily, but I always find myself wasting today’s grace for tomorrow’s griefs. Jesus said in Matthew 6:34, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
He knew, he knew that people like me would stress out and worry about the tomorrows. I love that he says each day has enough TROUBLE of its own. He knew, he knows the struggles and pains and fears and heartaches we all have day after day he knows and yet and still he wants us not to worry. He must know something we don’t. In fact he does, he knows exactly how much money I will have in my bank 2 days from now, a week from now, a year from now. He knows specifically to the T every challenge I will face day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, second by second. He knows all and sees all and all he wants is for us to trust him a second at a time. So, today we have enough for today and tomorrow we will have enough for tomorrow. Let us together each day use our grace wisely and without stretching it to fit tomorrow, because in the end Jesus is enough, all we need is in him. Trust in that!