For the past couple of days I have been really thinking about my relationship with God. The fact that we are called to love him and be completely satisfied in him, makes me nervous. Sometime I dont even know if I am loving well the people who I can touch, see, hear and speak to everyday. To love God who in my human mind I can’t touch see or hear seems impossible. I was thinking to myself, “How do I do that?” and a answer came, “A day at a time.” I was thinking about the way the Lord gives us enough to live out the day. Enough not our enough, and I think for a while I got lost in that word. Enough. I was reaching for my enough, the enough I thought the Lord was suppose to give the enough I required and but the Lord was saying, ” No, my enough for you is different then your enough for you. An Enough that is really enough, yours you will continually dry out and you will need more. But mines will fill and overflow” Enough grace, patience, love to carry you through this day to give to others and still have my enough which is more than enough. I have been thinking about enough lately because I didn’t feel I had enough and I didn’t, because my enough was coming for me and from people who I wanted to fill me, when all I needed was God’s enough only his and to accept and receive whatever that enough was for that day all of it without question or comment without nagging or crying for more. My days have been filled with more peace and calm then I could have ever imagined, once I let go of what my thoughts of enough were and took a hold of God’s Enough for me.
Today I have been thinking a lot about Paul and how Saul’s life was so much easier, then the new life he choose to live with. Saul was intelligent, high ranking he knew everyone, people listened when he spoke, he put people to death with a signature or even a word sometimes. He had it all and he was fighting for something he truly thought was right. Then, the truth showed it self as a blinding light on the way to Damascus. Paul’s conversion was dramatic, he was blind and hungry for 3 days. Can you imagine if you the day you asked Jesus into your heart or the day Jesus entered your heart, you immediately went blind. What a day for Paul. But it doesn’t end there. First Paul is lonely because no one wants to play with the yard bully, even if he says, “No, No I don’t do that anymore I love Jesus like you love Jesus, I won’t kill you now.” (Creepy Smile). Then, once people were okay with him, he travels around preaching the gospel. While preaching the gospel a slew of misfortunes happen to him, prison, shipwreck, prison, beaten half to death and oh did and I say prison (not in that order). Life was hard for Paul, but he kept trekking, kept moving, kept pushing on toward the goal to win the prize for which God had called him heavenward in Christ Jesus. He ran his race and didn’t complain, didn’t back down, didn’t waver. All this to say, Paul won in the end not Saul, Saul died in the desert, yes Paul had a hard life but it was hard for a purpose and though his life was hard his heart and mind were full of joy and peace. Joy and peace that only comes from Loving and trusting a God who you know no matter how life is has you in his hands. I’d rather be Paul.
How is your heart today? Is it angry, impatience, sad, lonely, agitated or is it joyful, patience, at peace. Our heart is a topic of much discussion in the bible. A topic of much good and much evil, depending on how we manage and maintain it. So how do you maintain a heart, how do you keep your heart in a condition that upholds the most important commandment, ” Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind.” You let the Great Mechanic tune, repair and do all the upkeep on your heart. It’s hard to love God with a negative heart, with a angry or sad heart, with a heart focused on what you need or want ,a heart focused on hate or revenge. The Lord carries those things for us, so we won’t carry them in our hearts, so we have room for him. He is able to make the space for us if we allow him. To help in the maintenance, we need to know what God’s word is. We need to know the truth so we understand the freedom and peace we have in the Lord. How do you keep revenge from your heart if you don’t know that the Lord said, “Vengeance is mine.” or how do you keep for letting loneliness over take your heart if you don’t know that the Lord is with you always and you are never alone. You need the word to know who God is and who you are in him, you need it understand what decisions to make in your life, you need God’s word to live and not just any type of life , you need his word to live a well and full life. A life that pleases the Lord. Your heart is important to the Lord, he wants it for himself, he wants your heart to be full of him, of his love, his peace, his joy. So, check in with your heart daily and make sure it is tuned to your loving Father.
Way up I feel blessed :-). People use that word often, without really understanding what it means. The webster definition is made holy; consecrated. If we use it in that context everyone who has given their life to Jesus is blessed. They aren’t blessed because of the amount of money they’ve made or cars or people who love them, they aren’t blessed because of what they have or what they don’t have, they aren’t blessed because everything is going right in their life, they are blessed because of the God they serve. And if you know God and accepted his son Jesus in your life you are blessed. I also believe being blessed is about the contentment of recognizing that blessed and blessings are nothing you can obtain for yourself, nothing you can earn or lose, just another one of those amazing free gifts you get from God without any effort on your part. So, stay blessed!
I wonder how much better life would be if we lived in the goodness of the Lord, the “And we Know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” goodness. Image if every single day no matter what happens, no matter what obstacles, no matter what you lose , no matter the mistakes you make you view it as It’s all good, know questions about it. Every part and piece of your life will be worked together for your good and God’s glory. We have a choose to be worry free or worry filled. Because your life is already written every worry is set right, every obstacle is overcome, every mistake corrected, every loss regained bigger and better. If we trust that every word of God is true and he is a Good Father, we have the ability to live everyday in the sun, in the beauty of goodness, grace, mercy and forgiveness and we have a choose to live everyday joyfully because whatever that day brings, whatever hardship or pain we know that it is being worked for our good. So, let today be the start of your God good life living.
Most of the time I am way too far head of God or to far behind. Either doing everything I shouldn’t or doing nothing at all. It’s hard, but my desire and prayer lately has been Lord keep me at your pace. We run, we stop to catch our breath and then we realize we where going much to fast to begin with, for some reason that fast walk jog that we see people do. The one we laugh at in our heads, the one that makes no sense, either you walk or run but that speed walking things… Is exactly where we need to be. We need to speed walk with God so we can slow do without hesitation or speed up with out the worry of getting tired. The Lord is walking at a pace that we can’t understand, but our mission is not to understand. Our mission is to run with patience endurance the race set before us. Patience Endurance, not getting angry when you feel the pace is to slow, not giving up when you feel like your going nowhere, not running ahead to where you think your suppose to go but being in the place at the pace that the Lord was set for you and going until the end no matter what. So, when you talk to God today ask him Lord, I am not sure what pace I am going right now but I want to be in tune with your pace and give me the patience endurance to stay at your pace no matter what comes my way.
This morning as I was doing the dishes and making breakfast. I was listening to the Gospel of Matthew. My ear tuned heavily in on when Satan was tempting Jesus (Matthew 4:1-11). Satan quoted scripture, to Jesus as he was trying to temp him . Scripture! He used God’s words. I then though back to Adam and Eve when the serpant asked Eve if God really said, You must not eat from any tree in the garden. She replied, “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden , but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.'” “You will not surely die,” the serpent said to the women. Now pause the serpent said word for word what the Lord said to Adam when he was giving him instructions before Eve was even made. Satan knows the Word of God! Do you? Satan uses our weapons against us and if we can’t fight back because we don’t know how to use the weapon how then are we to do battle. You can not fight with empty handed. The Lord has won the War, but there are still battles to be fought, prepare yourself, because your opponent the devil is ready and laying in wait for you, dont let him get the upper hand. Regonize that you are already a victor and prepare yourself for that victory! Going back to Matthew, for every scripture the devil quoted, Jesus had one to quote right back and not just any word the Scripture that he used had significance to what the devil was temping he with. So, learn your word so that when the devil comes at you hard and heavy, you can return the blows right back strong and smooth. and then tell him “Ok Satan I am done with you, get thy behind me!”